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The meek have inherited the earth(and no-one thought it would be like this)

I had an epiphany the other day.Puzzling over the state of the world and taking responsibility for something for the first time in 67 years.It came as quite a shock.When I heard the preachers speak of this(title),I assumed that it meant  those who were the poor,the downtrodden and the peace lovers.How was anyone to know that it actually refers to neo liberalism and political correctness?The meek,you see,are the cowardly,informant loving anti everything crowd that doesn’t allow dissent on college campuses anymore.That sees bullying in every action that isn’t utter kindness.That calls every sex worker a victim of human trafficking and every homemaker a victim,whether she loves her life or not?That has every child,up to their teens,a prisoner in their own home.Children so fearful that the thought of being left alone,even for 5 minutes within a crowd of familiar adults,is too frightening to imagine.It’s not just the children.Adults today are unfathomable to me.We live in a society where we are fed a steady diet of fear and overblown threats to our existence.I ‘ve lost count of the programs that have been set up to encourage the average citizen to inform on their neigh hours.To be alert and report?No child,walks to school without a parent.If the parent has a car,no child walks anywhere.The meek,you see,must have had very miserable,hard lives back in their school days.Rather than look at it as character building coping mechanisms.They see it as a horrible experience that no-one else should ever have to endure.They want everyone to change so that they can feel better about themselves.Ten thousand years of evolution has to change in one generation because the meek want everyone to be just like them.They’ll campaign against every human behaviour that made or makes them uncomfortable.No need to teach their children coping skills.Pay someone else to do it for them.What can’t be solved with the almighty dollar?Then there’s the courts.When was the last time any court ruled for the individual?The sheeple are now kings of the earth.Sadly,the poor earth is so degraded it doesn’t even get a capital letter,anymore.The sun kills,the air is polluted and the earth is no longer a living thing.Water,the stuff of life,essential and necessary is made a commodity.I am not one who is a believer of any kind.I see what men do and I shudder.I don’t believe that the bible is the word of anyone but man.I do now believe that whoever those men were,they had vision.I didn’t think this was what they meant when they said it but the meek have indeed inherited the earth.I just never thought it would be such a bad thing.Then again,the end,biblically speaking,has never been pretty.

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Pain,medicine and misunderstanding.

Pain,medicine and misunderstanding.

I just returned from the home of a long time friend who is,like myself,a victim of the current drug war ideology that permeates BC’s health care elites.Unlik myself,she isn’t someone with a history of opiate abuse.To the contrary,she is simply an unwitting victim of our health care systems ingrained opposition to the use of opiate drugs for the management of chronic pain.Unfortunately,I have a long history of heroin use and trafficking,going back to the 60’s.I actually started using with my wifes methadone,which she left in the fridge when she’d take off for days,weeks or a month.It was just to pass the time,as I was with our daughter,who was a pleasure,always.As a child,she also slept quite a lot.I digress,what I wanted to say was that this friend was in tears,once again,because her doctor was once again threatening to take her off of her morphine.Not because she was in less pain.To the contrary,she is much worse.He just thought she had been on it too long.This usually means that the college,in their ignorance and total lack of wisdom,doesn’t like long term morphine maintenance of any kind.She is getting a fifth of what I was getting per day when I was on morphine but it’s still too much.She needs hip and two knee replacements.Her pain is debilitating,but her doseage is very reasonable and s he has refrained from asking for more out of fear.Her pain isn’t being well controlled but she dare not ask for more,lest she be cut off altogether?She asked me,with tears in her eyes,why the BC medical people were so evil.Why they treated pain patients like criminals and made them justify every prescription on every visit and were constantly warning of withdrawal?This is a woman who is in constant chronic pain and is in need of surgery,for which she has no date.I told her I had been asking that same question for four decades and have never been given any kind of valid medical reason.There is no valid medical reason.These are the last of the prohibitionist true believers.They have it somewhere in their tiny brains that they are preventing the downfall of society.What they are doing is preventing the proper treatment of chronic pain in this Province.How to explain this in a Province with the only heroin maintenance program in NA?120 people won the lottery.They admit this themselves.The rest of us who have decades of ruined lives due to prohibition are the unlucky losers.Those of us who are unlucky enough to have a chronic pain issue are the worse off of all.They took away the one drug that was at least some kind of a mediator.They replaced it with another which they use high sounding and oh so moral reasons for changing to.This drug is nowhere near as effective as methadone and is causing problems in the majority of users.For those who have never been heroin users and are also in chronic pain,they get treated no better.In fact it’s because of the treatment she has seen through me,by the methadose clinic that she would never consider going to a methadose clinic.

Cloud HQ/data storage for business and for the home

I have recently signed on to Cloud HQ.As a long time(2007)user of a mac computer,I was searching for someplace to organize and store all the photos,documents,videos etc that I have collected in the last 8 years.I have never been very competent at using a computer and am pretty much restricted to doing whatever with as few moves as possible.From what I see so far,CloudHQ fits the bill for someone like me.I have managed to synch much of my data with ease and find the ease of operation a blessing.I’m unable to get into the kind of detail you’ll probably be able to find on many IT sites already.I can just attest to the simple fact that if,like me,you need to clear some space on your drive.You can easily put that on Cloud HQ as a backup.

Methadose,the new(2014)big pharma substitute that is causing major upheaval in the addict community

I have been on methadone in one form or another ever since 1970.I first joined at the clinic on Broadway and Cyprus and was put on 120 mgms a day,daily pickup.It was all I could do to make it to the street before I would vomit up a large part of it.Probably saved my life.I never got on well on methadone.I hate the way the drug makes me feel and I can’t stand the taste.I have never lasted at the same clinic for more than a few years.Now we move forward to 2013 and I am now on methadone for pain,after the colusion between my pain doctor and my methadone doctor and the college.I had been on opiates but was never allowed to leave the methadone program and I now realise that I should have walked out at 70 mgms,the level I was told I would not be taken down from “for awhile”.I had been informed about this new form of the drug called methadose,which was supposed to be methadone hydrochloride at 10 mgms permil.I was conned into trying it.Said I hated it and it caused me severe headaches.I was then told that I was to be given a clear form of the drug that was injectible.I soon found it was not only non injectable,it was cut with what I can only assume was naloxone,as injection caused no feeling at all.It also is cut with an inflamatory agent that also destroys the vein into which it is injected.So much for do no harm.These things were added and not even the doctors were told.I assume.The pain caused was considerable and I lost the only vein I had into which I could both inject drugs and withdraw blood samples.So we have a drug being used for treating not only addiction but chronic pain.That drug contains at least two medical ingredients which the makers refuse to name or to even acknowledge?Is it legal to supply a substance and keep from the providers what is actually in it?As an addict,I have been badly treated by the BC medical system to the point that my health is seriously compromised.I have border line kidney function and haven’t been able to have blood drawn for 18 months.I have jumped through many hoops to try to fix this and have had every request denied.Methadose,with the antagonist that is certainly in there,is a far reduced drug from it’s former counterpart.What damage the other ingredients cause is unknown and impossible,under our current system,to define.It causes side effects in over 50% of users and it causes me headaches and I have seizures about once a month.I have never experienced these before.My doctor is aware of this but his efforts to do anything about it have been blocked?I contend that methadose is a bad drug.I believe it was rushed onto the market in an attempt to grab a monopoly on this drug.It is evidently available world wide?I believe this drug is compromising my health.I write this so that if any harm comes to me in the near future that I want an autopsy done to see exactly what this drug has done.Having chronic pain isn’t fun.Having it and not being allowed to choose the drug best suited for your purposes is a crime against humanity.I think methadose is being compromised by the inclusion of an antagonist with the idea that it wouldn’t be effective unless injected?This is just plain stupid and anyone who understands drugs will confirm this.As for whatever they added to swell us up and cause a rash and pain and inflamation I don’t know but it’s in there as well.

UNODC chief says Afghan opium trade continues to grow – News – Stripes

UNODC chief says Afghan opium trade continues to grow – News – Stripes.

Last week,in the city of Vancouver,BC,Canada.I was able to buy .08 of a gram of pure afghan heroin for the sum of 20 dollars.Even though I am on 200+mgms of methadone,i was able to feel the potency of the drug.I t was the first time in over five years that I was both pain free and felt good.I have been depressed and unhappy ever since.I have been told that my kidneys are almost done.Noone will concede that methadone is bad for the kidneys and the liver.In fact they will admit nothing of the sort.I am being prescribed 210mgms daily.The international safe level for methadone is set at 120 mgms daily.Everyone I have known that was on high doses of the drug didn’t last very long.While heroin is known to be benign to all the internal organs,it’s chemical replacements are not.Methadone destroys liver tissue.I am sure it also destroys kidneys.I am quite sure that if I do not get off of the methadone very soon it is going to kill me.All methadone doctors in BC have to take an indoctrination course in which they are told some” truths”.This creates an adversarial relationship right from jump street.I have seen these doctors give conflicting information to different patients on the same day.Depends on what kind of manipulation they are using.They give out information such as that you can participate in 12 step programs while on methadone.This is an outright lie.They tell you that once your dosage is set that you are normal and can do anything a normal person can do.While I have worked at casual labour jobs while on methadone I wouldn’t want my physician on methadone before he opens me up.It’s obvious that there is going to be good quality heroin around for some time.We have a heroin program in Vancouver right now.I have been on methadone a dozen times or more and failed every time.Now I am in chronic pain and am being told to take methadone,which was never a pain medication and should never have been used as one.It’s all wrong and does very little to manage real pain.specially if you have a long history with the drug.Now it’s killing me and I know i will receive no help from anyone that I’ve met to this point in the BC health care system.If there is anyone in the blogsphere who knows any other province that has a more enlightened approach I would appreciate the knowledge.I know that even though BC has the only heroin program in NA it is also the most draconian place to try to get proper pain management if you have any drug history.While one part of the medical system knows that heroin is an alternative.A very dug in group has the methadone system in their grip and once they have you they never let you go.Even if it’s the worst possible thing for you.