I had an epiphany the other day.Puzzling over the state of the world and taking responsibility for something for the first time in 67 years.It came as quite a shock.When I heard the preachers speak of this(title),I assumed that it meant those who were the poor,the downtrodden and the peace lovers.How was anyone to know that it actually refers to neo liberalism and political correctness?The meek,you see,are the cowardly,informant loving anti everything crowd that doesn’t allow dissent on college campuses anymore.That sees bullying in every action that isn’t utter kindness.That calls every sex worker a victim of human trafficking and every homemaker a victim,whether she loves her life or not?That has every child,up to their teens,a prisoner in their own home.Children so fearful that the thought of being left alone,even for 5 minutes within a crowd of familiar adults,is too frightening to imagine.It’s not just the children.Adults today are unfathomable to me.We live in a society where we are fed a steady diet of fear and overblown threats to our existence.I ‘ve lost count of the programs that have been set up to encourage the average citizen to inform on their neigh hours.To be alert and report?No child,walks to school without a parent.If the parent has a car,no child walks anywhere.The meek,you see,must have had very miserable,hard lives back in their school days.Rather than look at it as character building coping mechanisms.They see it as a horrible experience that no-one else should ever have to endure.They want everyone to change so that they can feel better about themselves.Ten thousand years of evolution has to change in one generation because the meek want everyone to be just like them.They’ll campaign against every human behaviour that made or makes them uncomfortable.No need to teach their children coping skills.Pay someone else to do it for them.What can’t be solved with the almighty dollar?Then there’s the courts.When was the last time any court ruled for the individual?The sheeple are now kings of the earth.Sadly,the poor earth is so degraded it doesn’t even get a capital letter,anymore.The sun kills,the air is polluted and the earth is no longer a living thing.Water,the stuff of life,essential and necessary is made a commodity.I am not one who is a believer of any kind.I see what men do and I shudder.I don’t believe that the bible is the word of anyone but man.I do now believe that whoever those men were,they had vision.I didn’t think this was what they meant when they said it but the meek have indeed inherited the earth.I just never thought it would be such a bad thing.Then again,the end,biblically speaking,has never been pretty.
I just returned from the home of a long time friend who is,like myself,a victim of the current drug war ideology that permeates BC’s health care elites.Unlik myself,she isn’t someone with a history of opiate abuse.To the contrary,she is simply an unwitting victim of our health care systems ingrained opposition to the use of opiate drugs for the management of chronic pain.Unfortunately,I have a long history of heroin use and trafficking,going back to the 60’s.I actually started using with my wifes methadone,which she left in the fridge when she’d take off for days,weeks or a month.It was just to pass the time,as I was with our daughter,who was a pleasure,always.As a child,she also slept quite a lot.I digress,what I wanted to say was that this friend was in tears,once again,because her doctor was once again threatening to take her off of her morphine.Not because she was in less pain.To the contrary,she is much worse.He just thought she had been on it too long.This usually means that the college,in their ignorance and total lack of wisdom,doesn’t like long term morphine maintenance of any kind.She is getting a fifth of what I was getting per day when I was on morphine but it’s still too much.She needs hip and two knee replacements.Her pain is debilitating,but her doseage is very reasonable and s he has refrained from asking for more out of fear.Her pain isn’t being well controlled but she dare not ask for more,lest she be cut off altogether?She asked me,with tears in her eyes,why the BC medical people were so evil.Why they treated pain patients like criminals and made them justify every prescription on every visit and were constantly warning of withdrawal?This is a woman who is in constant chronic pain and is in need of surgery,for which she has no date.I told her I had been asking that same question for four decades and have never been given any kind of valid medical reason.There is no valid medical reason.These are the last of the prohibitionist true believers.They have it somewhere in their tiny brains that they are preventing the downfall of society.What they are doing is preventing the proper treatment of chronic pain in this Province.How to explain this in a Province with the only heroin maintenance program in NA?120 people won the lottery.They admit this themselves.The rest of us who have decades of ruined lives due to prohibition are the unlucky losers.Those of us who are unlucky enough to have a chronic pain issue are the worse off of all.They took away the one drug that was at least some kind of a mediator.They replaced it with another which they use high sounding and oh so moral reasons for changing to.This drug is nowhere near as effective as methadone and is causing problems in the majority of users.For those who have never been heroin users and are also in chronic pain,they get treated no better.In fact it’s because of the treatment she has seen through me,by the methadose clinic that she would never consider going to a methadose clinic.
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Last week,in the city of Vancouver,BC,Canada.I was able to buy .08 of a gram of pure afghan heroin for the sum of 20 dollars.Even though I am on 200+mgms of methadone,i was able to feel the potency of the drug.I t was the first time in over five years that I was both pain free and felt good.I have been depressed and unhappy ever since.I have been told that my kidneys are almost done.Noone will concede that methadone is bad for the kidneys and the liver.In fact they will admit nothing of the sort.I am being prescribed 210mgms daily.The international safe level for methadone is set at 120 mgms daily.Everyone I have known that was on high doses of the drug didn’t last very long.While heroin is known to be benign to all the internal organs,it’s chemical replacements are not.Methadone destroys liver tissue.I am sure it also destroys kidneys.I am quite sure that if I do not get off of the methadone very soon it is going to kill me.All methadone doctors in BC have to take an indoctrination course in which they are told some” truths”.This creates an adversarial relationship right from jump street.I have seen these doctors give conflicting information to different patients on the same day.Depends on what kind of manipulation they are using.They give out information such as that you can participate in 12 step programs while on methadone.This is an outright lie.They tell you that once your dosage is set that you are normal and can do anything a normal person can do.While I have worked at casual labour jobs while on methadone I wouldn’t want my physician on methadone before he opens me up.It’s obvious that there is going to be good quality heroin around for some time.We have a heroin program in Vancouver right now.I have been on methadone a dozen times or more and failed every time.Now I am in chronic pain and am being told to take methadone,which was never a pain medication and should never have been used as one.It’s all wrong and does very little to manage real pain.specially if you have a long history with the drug.Now it’s killing me and I know i will receive no help from anyone that I’ve met to this point in the BC health care system.If there is anyone in the blogsphere who knows any other province that has a more enlightened approach I would appreciate the knowledge.I know that even though BC has the only heroin program in NA it is also the most draconian place to try to get proper pain management if you have any drug history.While one part of the medical system knows that heroin is an alternative.A very dug in group has the methadone system in their grip and once they have you they never let you go.Even if it’s the worst possible thing for you.
Reopen Riverview to ease mental health conflicts | Vancouver 24 hrs. They never quit.The police state and ex police officers who think the way to deal with addiction is to lock people up and leave them to rot.This double diagnosis thing scares me to death.Not because I think there are not people who are better off in a institutional setting.We can see there certainly are.The thing about this is that it is an obvious attempt at making addiction itself a crime with the use of the mental health act.The police state has tried to pull this off on many occasions.Most were back in the 70’s and 80’s when the police were telling anyone who’d listen that heroin addiction was a plague on humanity and something had to be done.I attended several such meetings with friends and as soon as the people behind the plan saw we were there they shut the meeting down and left.They knew they had no validity behind what they were trying to do and had been subjected to our exposure of that fact before.Headlines such as 30,000 addicts in lower mainland were the rule of the day.The recent death of a Hollywood star and a 15 year old were tragic to be sure but nothing new.The governments back in the 70’s and 80’s were still in the dark ages of prohibition.People were still getting double digit sentences for small trafficking charges.Mere possession could get you a couple of years.I got two for my first sentence for simple possession.It’s not that the powers that be haven’t tried the harsh approach.People who weren’t around back then can be forgiven for thinking we are too easy on addicts.The truth is that the current judges were lawyers in the bad old days and saw that putting a person in prison for years for a drug charge did nothing but take that person off the street for a few years.Every time you get out you have more connections and know more addicts.The simple fact that I have been out for decades has stripped me of both.Of course I was active until I was struck down by a bone eating virus and that’s what stopped my activity.Most hard core addicts will die addicted.That’s not to say that most addicts will die addicted.Some do drugs for fun and others out of necessity.Some have lives to get back to or dreams they still hold and others are just doing what they have to to survive.I,personally,would rather die than be put through a forced treatment that would never take because I don’t do opiate drugs for kicks.I do them for basic survival.Reading this article brought back all the old fears that the police state would declare addiction a crime and force all addicts into compounds like river view.Who’s to say who is addicted because of a mental health issue and who is addicted because they like it?As soon as you start to put people under lock and key because of their drug problems.You will not see those that want treatment looking for it for fear of being locked up indefinitely.Addicts are already stigmatized enough.The vast majority of heroin users are part timers and the rest are just targets.They are branded as chronic offenders and harassed and imprisoned for the way they get their cash.Then there are the vast army of binners.People living on the edge of society,trying to stay out of jail and do their drug of choice without breaking the law.They are certainly prone to do illegal acts but are usually just scavenging scrap.Something that often leads to trespass charges or minor theft issues.These people could be cared for with the minimum of cost to the public and savings to the criminal justice system.Just change the safe injection site to a heroin maintenance program and the so called chronic offenders that take up so much of the police time,the courts and jails will be no more problem.Even a person like myself,who has been an addict for 45 years and is now a chronic pain sufferer is forced on Government methadone which I can’t stand and which is a very poor pain medication.I was once on opiate drugs but was stripped of all such assistance by a government methadone doctor with an agenda.That agenda had nothing to do with my health.It had everything to do with the indoctrination the College puts it’s methadone doctors through.Methadone is a chemical concoction,first invented as a cure for heroin addiction.It turned out to be worse that the disease but because it didn’t require a needle it was approved by many governments.It may have had a place in another time but we know enough now to know that it is far worse than prescription heroin for the user.It destroys the liver.So what this former police officer is asking for is forced confinement for addicts until and only if they are cured will they be released.So the hard core addict will have to play the old game.Pretend to be cured so you can get out and get back to it.Nobody likes to see obviously ill people living like animals on the street to get their fix.Even worse is the sight of mentally ill persons being hauled to jail because they are disoriented and out of control.Something must be done.The closing of horrors like riverview were done for all the right reasons.The fact that the on street care that was proposed,never happened, is a travesty.It was a cheap cop out by a negligent government that was more interested in bridges,hiways and hotels accommodations for conventions than the mentally ill.Trying to slide an addiction impound component into the current mental health problem is just another police state ,back door, slide around that will not stand.That this particular police officer is taking this stance on an issue that I was foolish enough to think we were in agreement on is no real surprise.I see the need for a place for mentally incompetent people.I will never agree to any such proposal that tries to make addiction something punishable by imprisonment for the duration.I am well aware that such people are out there and they always have been.There are still people in politics that were there when this was tried the last time.The fact that it has no basis in scientific study or behavioural study makes no difference to the Stephen Harper’s and the Leo Knights of this world.Luckily,they are dinosaurs,near extinct.They see everything in one light.They think might is right and only force is respected.They will never see addicts as people with serious problems that they deal with the best they can.The current prohibition of drugs even has some drug users looking down on other drug users.Everybody seems to need someone to hate.Addicts seem to be on the very bottom of everyones totem.We are just people.People with some serious issues and some major problems but we get by on very little and need even less.We are not worth all the major money that is wasted trying to convince us of what we already know.Sure we’re sick.
CMA ‘deeply concerned’ about tighter rules for safe injection sites | CTV News.This is the Harper neocons trying to do a reach around of the courts after spending millions and millions of our tax dollars in front of the courts trying to shut down insite.Their never ending saga(seemingly)began with one court action and spun out into a myriad of attempts to shutter the doors at the Vancouver location.The Dr.Peter centre,founded by a doctor who’s very public battle with the aids virus eventually killed him,opened the first location after watching what eventually became in site’s struggles with the constant harassment by the federal government.Fearing that the centre would never get the needed paperwork and exemptions from federal drug laws necessary.The Dr.Peter people opened the first safe injection site to little fanfare.The real show was taking place in the courts and in the media.The federal government rejected every attempt at reconciliation.Mired in neck deep ideology with absolutely no scientific evidence to back their position they went to court again and again.When the supreme court finally said enough!,it’s over,you lose.The Harpercons went to ground and brought together every failed and flawed expert that they could summon on short notice and came up with this bill.Like every drug bill that the conservative government spews forth it has no basis in anything that even resembles Canadian law or scientific research.It is a shopping list of proposals that they hope will make any future attempts at opening any more such sites a near impossibility.It’s a typically mean spirited attempt to appeal to the worst in human nature.It includes nimbyism and just about every fear tactic in the book.It’s pure Stephen Harper and you can bet it was drafted right in the PMO.It’s harper’s way of saying:”you might have won that round but this is far from over”.Like a small child who’s aims have been thwarted,the prime minister is showing just how small and petty he really is.Remember who all this money and time is being spent on trying to defeat.The lowest of the low.The one segment of society that it is still OK to make fun of and put down in public with no fear of retribution.In my humble opinion,the safe injection site is just a stop gap measure.What is needed is a heroin maintenance program for that segment of the addict population who will use heroin no matter how much time they are imprisoned or how low they go.These are people that are so broken that no one can put them back together.They get labels like chronic offender or career criminal when all they are is a drug addict that has less fear of prison than of being without.They are hounded and hated and spend far too much time incarcerated.We have done the tough love thing.We have done the jail and jail again thing.We have tried the forced treatment thing.We are stuck in a prohibition that is every bit as destructive and insane as the one on alcohol.The drunks have their liquor.The addicts just want their drug of choice.Because of cannabis,we have seen a huge movement towards an end to prohibition of that drug.In Europe,they realized that it was far more important to mitigate heroin addiction first.If cannabis does become legal,the drug cartels are not going to go away.They will shift their focus to heroin,meth and crack cocaine along with whatever else remains illegal.If we really want to stop the death spiral,we have to end all drug prohibition.There will be a lot to figure out.Whatever happens,it will be far less harmful than this prohibition and the mentality that has been grown along with it.
Inquiry report into Robert Pickton case to be made public Dec. 17 | CTV News.This will show that there is no value placed on the lives of addicts or hookers on the DTES.It will claim that lessons were learned and things are much better now.This will be pure politics.There is probably at least one serial killer working the DTES right now and people are still going missing.The addicts are still treated like trash and now that we have the area cordoned off as a drug zone the lives are worse than ever.You can’t make addiction a crime and make drugs illegal and yet allow the kind of non life being lived on the DTES right now.It just makes these people easy targets for the worst kind of predation.Heroin and crack are bad but methadone is not only alright,it’s great?Be addicted for life but on a drug no one wants and no one likes?The message is clear for all to see.It’s alright to be a drug addict as long as you do the drug we say is OK.The drug you want us to do.The drug we like is bad because?It makes no sense to me and I am in serious chronic pain and still only allowed to access methadone,in spite of recommendations from various neurosurgeons and my own input as to what works for me.No one cares.So people will die turning tricks for a fix and addicts will continue to go through the revolving door of prison,addiction and more prison.Or methadone for life,even though they hate it and get no pleasure from it’s use.This might have made some sense to someone at some time.It makes no sense now.I doubt it ever did.As long as we leave people in a semi legal limbo where they are easy targets,nothing is going to change.Someone is making a bundle of money on human misery.Right now a big profiteer is the BC college of Physicians and surgeons with their monopoly on methadone.